Welcome wise woman ☾
After the epic inner winter season I just experienced, I was inspired to write part 2 of this juicy series.
This season can be really unpredictable for me, you may find that too. I know it helps me to have a zero sugar, zero snack basically perfect diet during week 4 and week 1, but sometimes that isn’t possible.
But I do find there’s always grief and sadness.
Since becoming very attuned to my cycle, I experience a visceral loss in my body each time I prepare to bleed. It’s both beautiful and sad. I’m sure I’m not alone in this intense process?! However, I haven’t spoken to a woman who has shared this with me yet.
It overwhelms me for a while, and I find there’s a continuation of grief until the end of my bleed. I actually saw a reel on Instagram the other day, it said that some people injected some super old, super huge trees with something that would prevent them from hibernating. So the trees missed their winter season, and within one year, these trees died.
Wow.
The video touched my soul. I’m an active woman, a mother, a self employed gal and there’s not much time for hibernation. Or rather, my neurodiverse mind struggles to take spontaneous rest. I like my rest to be planned, ideally I would take a whole day or two to shut off from everything. But that’s not possible anymore, so I took note of this reel and managed to flow in to a slow morning this week to honour the intense emotions and tiredness I was feeling.
It felt very, very good.
Week 1 may stop you in your tracks. With or without your permission, you will be slowed down! Your mind may be foggy, unfocused, disorganised which makes it hard to do all the tasks you usually do. Frustrating right! Slow down.
Then, you may catch a cold, or a sickness bug. Slow down.
Then, you may be crying so much you can’t leave the house! Slow down.
Haha, the body and it’s wisdom 🤎 trust it my love.
There is wisdom in this process. There is a deep release that is happening, the body needs it’s hibernation to accommodate the emotional purge and physical shedding that is taking place. I strongly believe that when we miss this consciously, it remains in our body. The rest is needed to reset after the loss, and of course, there will be other things being released along with the loss of your egg. It’s an introspective time, it presents you with a chance to acknowledge your deepest feelings. You will hear a lot of deep truths echoing in your mind, you will feel a lot of unprocessed emotions, whether they are yours or collective.
Time alone, or at least at home, creating a gentle environment for yourself is so important to hold the space for you to go through this amazing time 🤎
I find myself asking my toddler to use a quiet voice much more at this time, he says ‘why mummy?’ and I let him know I’m finding it stressful and I need some quiet time. Which is so important for both us to be able to do. And other times, I just reach for my ear plugs!
Inner winter is a time of being. Not doing. Receive insights, recognise old patterns and embrace an inner cleansing that roots you deeper and deeper in to who you are as a woman.
Sometimes it can be totally overwhelming, I often feel my most out of control during week 1. I feel at my least confident, least in flow, least productive. For an active woman this can be a challenge! But that’s the lesson. To let go for a little while. It’s magic really, and it really makes space for the new to flow in 🤎
As this is our wise woman phase of the month, I often find it fun to merge into that, letting myself feel ‘older and wiser’ for a while.
Although winter season is often a time of aloneness whilst you nurture yourself, it can be a really lovely time to experience other women as you are more in a ‘take me as I am’ mood. It can create deep, open and meaningful conversations that leave you feeling supported and loved. Seek these women and they will find you 🤎 we are magnets after all! If you are feeling alone, I invite you to seek the collective energy of heartful wise women, the grandmother circle of your ancestors. Can you reach your hand out to them and join their magic?
Sending you love on your journey, wise woman!
Love and blessings xxx